(=^･ω･^=) nacho baby (9.18)

 9.18.24

11:09PM MOOD: satisfied, tired, proud
watching: Slushy Noobz

today was a pretty okay day! i got up and snuggled with my cat in bed for a bit before i got up for the day and hung around. mid-afternoon i started to prep stuff for a kind of makeshift 'dal' that ended up tasting pretty damn good!

i prepped a whole bunch and while the dal was cooking, i also made some homemade flatbreads which tasted suuuuper great, like restaurant quality! the only thing i would have done differently about it was not cooking down the dal as much as i had, id prefer it a little more creamy.

by the time i was done eating and having a long talk with my grandma, i was ready to shower. we had been talking about some heavy stuff that's been plaguing me lately (moreso subconsciously, it's not at the front of my mind right now) but i feel as if i get a little repetitive when talking about it, especially after it had already been dealt with.

my shower was subpar, honestly. i sat this time in the shower. i used to sit a lot in the shower, but for the past few months i usually stand now. i think it was because i was having a hard time feeling like myself in the shower. i was thinking about the gaps in my memory, and how they're getting worse. sometimes i feel like because i can't remember, none of the things that happened 'really happened' and it freaks me out. im not going to lie, i kind of spiraled in the shower but i didn't really realize it until now, as im writing

just the usual disassociation stuff, accompanied by not being able to remember a lot of what i used to remember, and not feeling real. it's kind of odd, but im fine now so i wont get too into it.

after my shower, me and boyfriend called! that was really fun, we played a bunch of rounds of dead by daylight, and just hung out. we got to talk about my old oc a little bit which was fun, i really missed her. bad!

im thinking maybe this weekend im going to get some stuff to make crafts, and make some stuff as a gift to go into the halloween gift im giving to all of my boyfriends. it'll take some time making individual handmade crafts for each of them, but the sooner i start, the sooner i'll finish! i enjoy it a lot as well.

BIOLOGY EXAM IS TOMORROW!!!! im going to cram during the day, and i'll write near the end of the night to let you guys (anyone out there?) know how i did. i'm so nervous, but if i freak out too much about it i'll flunk.

CURSE YOU PROCTORIO!!!!

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